It's quite interesting writing these posts, there area always so many things that I want to write that I forget alot of the things. It's kind of like a puzzle and a race, a race to write down my thoughts as quickly as possible but a puzzle to make them all fit together and feel complete.
Today I woke up at 5:45 a.m. exactly. And when I couldn't go to sleep I ended up finishing my book that I was reading. Whilst reading I could hear my parents getting ready to leave for work. It was kind of amazing watching the sun grow brighter for the first time since school ended. Anyways, so I read my book and there were many points that it made and it was a good book I must say, but what the book was about wasn't really important in the end. Why I read, why I sleep are kind of connected in a way. I do both because I don't want to think my own thoughts because it's boring or it's too difficult and scary to. But then again sometimes I am afraid of sleeping because of old memories that I see or things that I dream that I believe to be reality. This may not make sense to you and I apologize.
I like being awake but I also like to sleep. But isn't there always a slight preference? Which one do I like more? Some may say sometimes they prefer things equally but sometimes I believe that as a person, you will always like something better than the other for various reasons. Just something to think about.
So I'm leaving and I'm starting to have traveler's butterflies as I always do when I go someplace new. I find that whenever I am about to leave I always like home more. I should always like home though, shouldn't I? But this home is not my home. I feel sometimes that I have found my place and know where my home is but at times I feel like I am not a part of home, like it is almost a distant place.
And I know that this was a very lame entry, so sorry. (: To go back to sleep or to stay awake is now the question.
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Sincerely,
Michelle
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