Letting Go

Listening: Easy - Ne-Yo

I think I'm finally done being mad. I'm done being mad at you. I think I've come to the point where it's pretty useless to try with you anymore. I've given up. It's been three years, can you believe it? I'll miss everything definitely, everything about you and things we did together. But you told me to find out what's next for me and to pursue it. I still haven't found it yet but I'm still getting there. I hope you have a happy life, that you get everything that you want and more. I'm sorry for the both of us that I feel that I can't be apart of it. It's just that the situation now looks and feels like we're on different roads, heading in the same direction but taking different routes. I wonder if we'll meet in the end.

Farewell,
Michelle

P.S. This is actually another part of the post but I felt weird it being all sad then happy and then sad again with the farewell. Haha. On a lighter note I am so stoked for Warped Tour '10! I hope I get to go. I've had Bryce Avery's songs on repeat for the last week and I really want to pre-order his Of Men and Angels CD but I'm not sure yet... Finals week went well! Of course, besides this one teacher... I am stressing over those 2 points that the final dropped my SEMESTER AVERAGE. I feel like I should try to make it up but I'm not sure if I have the will power or ability to. Anyways, hope your MLK day was good!

TENNIS TOURNAMENTS START THIS WEEK. LET THE 4 DAY WEEKS BEGIN

Why Am I the Rule and She is the Exception?

Have you ever wondered why some people are the exception to the rule? Why you aren't the exception to the rule? What makes them so special? So special that they are the exception?

I feel like I'm living my life in one of the most cliche ways, so predictable. I feel like I have to obey the rules of society. I don't really mind but I sometimes wonder if I could be so much more. Potential.

I still have to figure out some New Year's resolutions, goals of definite measurable proportions. Is it better to set high goals and then be disappointed when you don't achieve them or to set realistic goals and then just be blasé? I wrote a letter to myself this summer, right before school started. It was filled with goals and ideas, fresh from my summer experiences. I wonder if I have meet any of the goals I set. But then again, I kind of know that I wrote the letter with no real motivation or intention, I kind of felt like I had to write one just in case I became excited about it once I forgot it. But I haven't forgotten about it so I'm still indifferent.

Sincerely,
Michelle

You're an Idiot (Just Being Honest)

Listening: Heartless (Cover) - The Fray

Haha. I'm just kind of confused and mad. This one person is so confusing and I don't know if they are worth the trouble anymore. Time wasted, effort useless.

I have been fueling my love for Starbucks coffee and drinks. White Chocolate Mocha, oh how fattening you are but oh so delicious.

I've been driving quite a bit, I find it to be pretty relaxing, except when my mom is telling me to slow down too early. |:

I'm quite ready for winter to be over. I don't really enjoy having cold feet or hands. But it might be just because I'm looking forward to getting my license! And perhaps I might get an iPhone (:

Nothing much again this time.

Hopeful,
Michelle

I feel like whenever things are going well I always lack words to write.

Yesterday was an amazing day. This week I haven't had much work so I've been able to gather myself after my breakdown on Monday. I talked to Grace for the first time in what seems to be forever. I miss her so much, she's been my support and my mentor for as long as I can remember.

No words are coming to me but maybe later?

Sincerely,
Michelle