Hello June. Hello Summer.

Ahh. So refreshed right now. I just finished this amazing K-Drama. I made me sad that it ended, sadder than Hana Kimi I think. I finished talking to my friends on the phone, she makes me smile. I just ate cake with my family celebrating my brother's graduation!

I realized so many things these past weeks.

While I was in Michigan I realized how much I do treasure my family. Just when I was ready to get away from everything at home, things were good for my family for once. But now again I am just as ready to leave everything behind, but I don't think I can. Things in life are unbelievable right now, almost. I have amazing friends and an amazing summer to look forward to.

My brother graduating made me really proud? I don't know quite yet. It's hard imagining him leaving in two months. I got to see him walk up on stage and graduate with all his friends. He will always be my brother o:

If you live life doing your best and without regrets then things will hurt less, knowing that you tried your hardest. Haha, that's from my drama ;D I wish I could live my life with no regrets but I'm afraid. I'm afraid of what might or might not happen.

So you say that life is moving by fast? So you say that things are going slow and that you're bored? Well here's reality, time moves just as fast as it does for everyone in the world. One second will always be one second no matter how 'fast' you think it is going. So live life to it's fullest with no regrets about how you spend that time.

I thought I had said goodbye but I guess not. It makes me frustrated that once I accept an 'empty' friendship that person just comes back. After I was able to accept that they we're no longer there for me, they come back thinking that I have open arms, which I do because I'm too nice. But they need to understand that it hurt me, that they left me. I don't want to be the person that's there because it's convenient. I don't want to fall back into 'old habits' just because that person needs me to. It's not fair to me or my feelings. Why should I have to?

Guitar is going good. Piano is well too. I am happy. I am smiling. I am enjoying life. I am not mad at myself anymore. I have no regrets about what I did or didn't do in the past because I can't change it. I am satisfied; I am content, but is that enough? My friend believes that no guy will ever be good enough for me, is that to be true?

Will I ever be eternally happy?

안녕,
Michelle